Are you waiting on God’s Timing?
This month, money has been tight, tight to the point where at my big age, I considered asking my mom for help. Earlier this week, when the thought came across my head, I took a deep sigh as it was not so long ago that I vowed that borrowing would no longer be my portion. As I thought about my car would need petrol in the next few days and that the fridge was starting to look desolate, I thought about picking up the phone to call my mom, head hung low in shame and ask for “help”.
However, before I did, I decided I would check in with God, and I told Him, that instead of worrying about food and my finances, that I am making the decision to trust in Him, to provide for us. I went along my day, without mentioning anything to my mom and that was the end of that day.
As the next day came along, I did my routine of checking on my online businesses, to see if any sales had come through. Nothing! No books sold or any dental shoes. I then began to think again about the petrol in the car, my husband and son needing to go to work and school, ne needing to go to uni, the food in the fridge dwindling away, and I did something that I now regret. I went about “providing for myself” in a way that was not right, that I later regretted, instead of talking to God and going to Him and WAITING for Him to provide for me. I did the complete opposite of what I had said to Him that I wanted to do, which was to completely trust Him in terms of providing for us financially.
As that day went on and I felt even more sad, I began to look back over the years of my life and situations that I have found my self in, in terms of lack of resources, food and money and how I have seemed to always lacked FAITH & TRUST in God in this area. Then it dawned on me I was going in this repeated cycle, where it seems as I am in situations that should force me to trust and wait for Him, yet instead all I do is cry out and begin to wait, but never completely do because in my eyes, God isn’t going to come through or I’m going to have to wait too long which I don’t want to do.
A cycle that by the Grace of God I will break!
Now, check this; over the weekend I was having my bible reading time and I was reading the account of the first king of the Children of Israel, Saul in the book of 1st Samuel. Now Saul started out good, but very soon after Saul’s true self (without God) was not good, he was hasty and impatient and failed to wait upon God. 1 Samuel describes when the Israelites where about to go to battle that it was their custom that the priest (who would have been Samuel at this time) would have gone before the LORD and make supplications and burnt and peace offerings to Him. However, sir hasty, decided that he couldn’t be bothered to wait so he offered the offerings himself that he could get going into war. Its funny because it was the same day Samuel was to arrive to conduct the make the offerings that he decided that he could no longer wait.
Sometimes we ask God to do something for us and instead of being humble and waiting patiently for however long we need to wait for, just as God is about to come through for us, we rush before Him and do things our way.
When Saul did this, he was punished, not just him, but the kingship was removed from his descendants for ever.
As I reflected on my money situation this week, I now realised that God knew that I would be facing the situation with my finances this week and He saw the temptations that I would be faced with and as a result He sent me over to 1st Samuel to read and learn about Saul and his impatience. However, what I failed to do, was to be on guard and STAND ON BUSINESS and NOT worry about my finances and my decreasing fridge stock. Because with all I have been through, there is one thing I know, that God ALWAYS come through for me.
My Family, wait on God. Don’t rush before Him and do things your way, because 10/10 you are going to make a mess of things and us coming through for ourself don’t hit the same as when GOD comes through for you.
Isaiah 40:31 - But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Exodus 14:14 - The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.”
Philippians 4:6 - Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
Have a Great Week
Love Renee
