Have you thought about where God has taken you from?
This week, I did my usual morning routine, drop my husband off to work then back home to have devotion with Amari, get him dressed and ready for school and back out to get him to school. On my journey back home, after dropping Amari off to school, I thought of my own journey to the destination and when I started to really realize where God has taken me from and where He has placed me TODAY, I ugly cried, in my car, UNCONTROLABLY.
I am a late bloomer in life, so when most of my school associates where in university, I was at far away from home living a life that I had no business in. When my they were enjoying their careers, I was enjoying the company of people who enjoyed degrading and pulling me down, sitting in dead end jobs thinking that this is it for me. After I had my son in 2015, I realized that working in a dead-end job, was not going to do it for me, neither was my dancehall lifestyle, nor my friendship groups, the smoking the drinking, the skin bleaching and the life without God.
Amari was no more than 6-7 months, and the end of my maternity leave was approaching. I remember sitting down and getting my device and going onto the national careers website and having a look at all the major careers and thought about what I would be best suited to do. I came across different careers in Dentistry and I said YES! This is me. However, the more I tried to get my foot into the door, it felt as if my foot was being kicked away and every door was being shut into my face. I think I applied for most trainee dental nursing positions in derby at that time, but nothing. I remember going on an interview and was told that I had the job and that I would be emailed over starting details and NOTHING. Although l knew God was not a horrible God, I just couldn't understand why I wasn't been given the opportunity to progress, surely He didn't want me to continue living the life that I was, in the surrounding that I was in. At the time I couldn't see it, but years later I began to see that, Derby wasn't where God wanted me to be, the friends that I had holding me to Derby wasn't who He wanted me or my son to be around.
Psalm 84:11 .... No good thing will He withhold from those who walk uprightly.
Fast forward 3 ½ years later, I left Derby and moved to Wales, I completed an access course, however during that time it was the MERCY of God, why I did not end up being KIDNAPPED, it was the mercy of GOD, why I am not currently serving a county lines PRISON sentence! From this access course I completed, put me in a position to apply for a range of dental nursing and dental technician courses across the UK and all 6 courses that I applied to, I was offered a place. The funny thing was that all these courses, except for one, were too close to Derby and honestly, I did not want to be accessible to my past or my past to be accessible to me! So, I decided to take the offer that was 3 hours from my past and moved to Middlesbrough. During Covid-19 I completed a Certificate of Higher Education in Dental Nursing and then started a Degree in Dental Hygiene which I am now 7 weeks from completing.
Now you understand when I looked back on all that I went through, all that God saved me from, even the doors that he allowed to close, why I couldn't control my tears and why the only words I could say was THANK YOU LORD.
Whatever you are going through, don’t allow your day-to-day life allow you to only focus on what is going on in your present, but take time to reflect on where you are today and where God has taken you from and taken you through.
Psalm 25: 1-3 To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul. O my God, in you I trust; let me not be put to shame; let not my enemies exult over me. Indeed, none who wait for you shall be put to shame; they shall be ashamed who are wantonly treacherous.
Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Have a Great Week
Love Your Sis Renee
